I’ve been alcohol free for 482 days today.
So far, I’ve learned:
- to be kind and gentle with myself because giving up alcohol in a booze obsessed society is hard. It’s everywhere you look.
- being alcohol free is something to be proud of. Alcohol is an addictive harmful substance that is no longer a part of my life.
- I am not the norm and I like it. When others are drinking and I am not, I feel grateful that I don’t need or want alcohol and that it in no way drives my behavior.
- alcohol caused me anxiety. I thought alcohol was helping me to relax, but really it was exacerbating my fears and worries.
- not to romanticize alcohol. This is possibly the biggest factor in me getting and staying alcohol free. All the positive stories that I had attached to alcohol were lies. The beautiful moments that I experienced while drinking were in spite of alcohol, not because of it.
- I sleep better. Drinking alcohol negatively effects your sleep. Sleeping better has improved my life overall.
- I wasted a lot of time drinking and thinking about drinking. I have so much more time now to do the things I enjoy.
- to try and fail and try again. To be more vulnerable and to try new things. My world has opened.
- alcohol makes you look like crap. My skin is no longer dehydrated and my eyes are clear and bright.
- alcohol makes you feel like sick. Being dehydrated all the time made me lethargic. Being hungover was the worst because not only was I sick, but I was responsible for my illness.
- to be present. I no longer have the desire to alter my reality.
- I like myself. I had been experiencing shame from drinking for so long, that I didn’t even realize the self loathing was a direct result of drinking alcohol.
- I am not missing out. People who drink are not having more fun. If you don’t believe me, spend a couple of hours with a drunk person.
- there is a lack of real connection when you are drinking. Alcohol anesthetizes your brain, which is why I often shared information I would not normally have shared when I was drinking.
- life is short and I don’t want to waste any of it drinking alcohol and recovering from drinking alcohol.
- to feel the pain when there is pain and to deal with it without alcohol.
- to fill my life up with beautiful moments not drunken escapades.